Of a mood

Although it has been rest days for me I’ve been plagued with irritations which have hampered most of what I had planned to do. Needless to say that sudden change in good old British weather probably hasn’t helped as I had hoped to get across to the Peak District with the new puppy which hasn’t happened (I can’t even stomach the idea of a muddy dog in my car).

I can’t actually put my finger on the niggling annoyance in my addled brain but it is probably a culmination of different things. Not least of all a decision in respect of my full-time job which I have made and now have to wait and see if I have made the right choice (cryptic yes but that’s just how I am).

As for writing. I am, thankfully, nearing the end of the master re-edit of INTO THE DARK and it’s gone swimmingly so far. Nice to see some of the continuity errors I had made with some minor details. Pulling it all together now I am happy with the story.

Which brings me to the style of this one. I confessed to another author on a Facebook Page that my first novel was one that was ruled by what I thought was the right length. Researching expected word counts and that perhaps influenced my story into being a little…..padded perhaps with aspects that need not necessarily have been there. Sure I may be no more famous or established since then but I feel I have learned from this and perhaps grown in my writing style.

With the ORIGINS OF THE MAGDON series, I was once again ruled by word count but in the opposite end of the spectrum. I wanted, needed, these stories to be accessible to all levels of interest, attention and reading as I wanted them to be a story shared between parents and children mainly. I knew I had to write a succinct story that appealed to younger and older audiences but wasn;t too convoluted and distracting.

And so the feedback was positive but some people wanted more….so from too long to too short.

With INTO THE DARK I’ve simply let it evolve. I haven’t set myself a word limit or goal, I’ve just told the story as it has played out and ironically it falls around the right “expected” length of a novel for Young/New Adults…funny that isn’t it. Let your head just spill the stuff out and somewhere along the way it makes it all work out.

I say that but I haven’t released it yet so could be saying all this and in reality churned out some utter tripe that people really do say to me “why the hell have you bothered you talentless hack?” I hope that isn’t the case though!

Who sets the conventions, who is to say they are right, who am I to say they aren’t? It’s a bloody funny world all of this and I confess I have no real idea what I am doing. I quite literally make this all up as I go along and find a few rules and conventions to follow along the way.

It’s the same with the Agent search. Low and behold I don’t find my inbox filled with requests for full manuscripts. I get that. I get that I am not writing the stuff that most Agents seem to be asking for. I’ve written a story I know I will enjoy, it’s not politically charged, it’s not filled with sex or foreplay, it’s not touting LGBTQ aspects…..what it is really is an escapism story for me (sorry to say I am a less than average married father with an enjoyment for life outside of the 9 to 5). So I expect little or no response but I can’t sell my self to write something I don’t think I would connect with and as such fail to deliver on a level that would make it worthwhile for people to read.

Making me my own worst enemy and a stubborn bugger that does what he does in the hope someone, somewhere will connect and like it.

But until then I can be my own Agent, my own Publisher and my own (pitiful) Marketer.

I suppose I should get back to the last 9 chapters of full re-hash edit having got extremely soggy with the doggy!

Nice to get a rant off my chest.



Reaching out to the famous!

I have decided to try and reach out and see if the “little man” can make contact with one of the famous people in this world. I wrote quite an open and honest, far less formal than I probably should have, email to the agent office of Ewan McGregor. You may ask why, but when I created Gabe in my head I always try and write with an actor in mind (should my mad ideas ever become more than a self-published book) and so Ewan sprang to mind for Gabe.

So, being the slightly odd, idiot I am I decided to write his agents an email. Now I fully expect nobody to reply to it and for him never to even hear of me/my pseudonym or my books but you don’t know if you don’t try.

I originally posted this as a Facebook post which reached over 1,000 people but I could not “boost” the post as my picture contained “too much text”…….no surprise as the picture is of the original email. So I have created it as a blog post to hope I can get shares, love and perhaps use the power of the internet to reach my desired target audience.

I don’t expect anything from this (that sort of luck rarely happens for me).

But here is the original email to let you see what I am trying to do.

Website links:



FREE EBOOK OF BOOK ONE (that created this story and journey)

Cheeky Letter
A few bits blanked out for privacy but this is what I sent word-for-word – a natural style?

Escaping reality – sometimes needed

In light of all the events in my home country recently I have been forced to take a leave of absence from my other life. This has been one of those entirely unavoidable times when work must boil over and become the be all and end all of everything, even more so than family sometimes which again has taken its toll. Although I don;t go into my work life very often it’s clear to say the family within which I work has been tested to almost breaking point and whilst I may be on the fringes it has been felt.

To that end I offer my apologies for not being “Tobey Alexander” and not devoting enough time to being present. I know it is easy to assume this writing/author identity and believe me I have used it to escape the pressures of day-to-day demands quite effectively recently.

I have also introduced a new addition to my already substantially large family and now add a puppy to the three children, two cats, wife and me! Ironically unlike more conventional authors (I never claimed to follow convention) but I have named my dog after my own character, not the other way around. So my Cockerpoo (yes that name makes me laugh) is called Archy in homage to my fake great grandad!

He is, of course, demanding some of my attention, again a welcome escape from work but that does not mean I have not been doing at least a little behind the scenes work as Tobey Alexander.

I have compiled some approaches to Agents To be truthful I’m not sure why because I suppose being self-published gives me full freedom. Indeed it adds a lot of pressures going it alone (I despise poorly presented book covers so spend as much effort as I can coming up with covers I would like to look at without employing the services of others). I think an Agent or someone in the elusive “industry” would in a way add some credibility to me, maybe more to massage my own ego and stroke the sense that maybe I am not just a hack at all of this.

I don’t know, I know it is what “should be done” so I will go with it and see what doors, if any, it opens.

As you’ve guessed already by now I do tend to speak my mind as it comes into my head which is why some of my Blog entries spin-off at tangents. But I can be forgiven for that……..can’t I!?!

Alas I can confidently say I have no idea which cover I like at the moment for my next big project INTO THE DARK. I still have the final Origins Of The Magdon book to release in Autumn that will bring Archy’s own adventure to a close. Albeit that is designed, edited and completed and sat waiting to be released.

As I keep saying, my ability to promote my own material, advertise my books and be the noticed rising star is about as reliable as being guaranteed to see the sun for the entire of summer in England! That being very little! I really do need to bite the bullet and either pay or get my finger out of my own posterior and add yet another new skill-set to my ever growing attempts at being writer, editor, designer, publisher and who knows…….publicity attemptor!

Well I should get back to Archy (the puppy not the character although…..sorry I will shut up).

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Smile everyone, as much as you can.